Tuesday, June 13

In loving memory

14 years ago today, my mother passed away suddenly. She was 53. Michael was 4. I was 30.

I've missed Mom so much. I missed her on her grandson's first day of kindergarten and I'll miss her in two days when he graduates from High School. I missed her when I walked down the aisle into the arms of the man she always dreamed I'd marry. I missed her on Gwen's Gotcha Day and I miss her all the time as Gwen and I share happy mother-daughter moments that remind me of my childhood. I'll miss her on Maddy's Gotcha day too.

I always think about her on her birthday but I don't go out of my way to remember the anniversary of her death because it's such a sad thing. Most of the time, the day passes without catching my attention. But when I do notice it, I think it's only right that I take a moment to honor her memory. It's good to remember the funny, giving, "artsy", loving person who I called "Mom". But it also hurts to think about all the world lost when we lost her.

I'm just glad He lets her visit.


Blogger Jana said...

This post made me soooo sad. You're mom was a great woman...she took care of me too when i would spend the weekend with you guys. She treated me as if i was one of her own children. I miss her too so much. I can relate to everything you said as i lost my mom when i was 30 also, and Kalie was only 8 months old. She missed all my 'special' moments in life. Just know that she's there with you in spirit.

June 14, 2006 7:40 AM  
Blogger Gracencameronsmomy said...

I am sorry, i know how hard that is...

June 14, 2006 9:24 AM  
Blogger Sam said...

You are in my thoughts today.

June 14, 2006 12:11 PM  
Blogger Kimber and Chris said...

This is very beautiful and I love the montage you created of her and your family.

June 14, 2006 4:50 PM  
Blogger Milinda & Edward said...

Your Mom has now touched more lives than she ever could have dreamed. Through your post, you have given us a glimpse into her character.

I can't even imagine what my life would be like without my Mom, and I feel for you in your sorrow.

June 14, 2006 11:14 PM  
Blogger PeiLien said...

wow Becca, I didn't know. I can't stop the tears..my mom is a (various) cancer survivor but struggles every day and reading your post made me appreciate her even more then I already do my mother.


June 15, 2006 7:43 PM  
Blogger asiangarden said...

I feel for you not having a mother to share all these moments with.It must be so hard.

June 16, 2006 9:16 AM  

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